Disappointment

"it doesn't mean it's never going to happen" - okay.

"it means you're not ready for it?" - really?

I have been engulfed in disappointment lately.

Why?

I can't seem to find a part-time job. Yes, you didn't read it wrongly. Just a part-time job. You must be thinking, "how difficult can it get?" But for me, I don't seem to have any luck searching for a job.

It's quite depressing, you know, when you try so hard to find a job but with futile hope, while those around me took little effort to search for a part-time job. Whats more, I'm not very picky with my job. In fact, I'm fine with taking up any position. The pay doesn't really matter much to me too.. But sadly, I still don't have a job. And I'm wasting quite a lot of money travelling from home to the interview location and back again. For example, I've been to International Plaza @ Tanjong Pagar for like 3 times this month already. I wonder if I'll still be going there again.. -.-''

Mummy was right. She said that I was someone who really lacked some luck. I always didn't get the things that I wanted or desired. I always had to go an extra mile in order to achieve it, when others could easily obtain it. Aware of that, I actually started searching for jobs immediately after Os. I applied for many jobs - emailed, SMSed, walk-in interview. All these still failed to secure a job for me, not even a one-day job! I really don't know if there's something wrong with me or what.

This has kinda affected my morale and confidence level in searching for a job.. :/ But I shall continue to persevere; I really hope to find a job before I go overseas! :/